NEW CASTLE —
What makes you angry?
I'm so glad that I had this question in my arsenal, because I wasn't really sure how I was going to manage to choke out a blog this week. I told my editor as much, and he said, "Well, write angry then."
I felt I'd be doing a disservice to my readers since you're all used to hearing me tell you things that are a little more inspirational than they are honey badger. But you know what? I'm angry right now. I've never lied to you before and I'm not about to start now.
I'll try not to bore you with all the disgusting details, but I am going to tell you why I'm so angry. Last week, I found out that I can't get surgery that I need. Now, keep in mind that I wasn't looking for a boob job or liposuction, or enhancements to make me look more like a cat than a human. I need this surgery to end years of agonizing pain that ONLY the surgery can cure.
So I made the decision to buy health insurance that I couldn't really afford in the first place, only to find out after the surgery was scheduled that there existed a different benefits book than the one I was given, which outlines a year and a half waiting period due to a pre-existing condition clause.
Was it my own fault for being too naive to ask if there was a different booklet with different rules than the one I purchased the plan from? Ultimately, yes, it was. I wouldn't buy a car and think to ask if all the parts came with it, but go ahead and look "naive" up in the dictionary.There's my big, fat, smiling picture holding a copy of my first-ever health insurance plan.
But that's just the nature of the beast, and this time, the beast simply got the best of the honey badger. And in true honey badger fashion, I cried, and I wailed, and I railed. And then I rallied. I'm still not getting the surgery, but I'm working on a plan to keep myself out of pain until I do. And when that day comes, I suspect I won't be quite so angry at the beast anymore.
Because the thing about anger is that, in the end, it serves no real purpose. Sure, it can be a good way to stop thinking about the fear and the pain, but if you hold onto it for too long, it will eat away at you. It will twist away in your gut and grow even faster than the tumors and the physical pain itself.
And so I'm trying to come back from that, to lay the anger aside and move forward the best I can with the cards I've been dealt. I owe it to myself, and to my children, and to you, to try to reign the anger back in.
I promise I'll be back next week with something more positive. In the meantime, maybe let this be the lesson we learn: Some of us seem to have to weather more than our fair share of storms — but it's gotta end someday.
And if we're still standing when that day comes, just think about how strong we'll be.
NEW CASTLE —
What makes you angry?
- News Bloggers
Josh Drespling: Despite what ‘they’ say, I’ll take my idols any day
“They,” in their infinite wisdom, say to never meet your heroes. “They” say that you will be greatly disappointed with the stark and complete reality of said person.
Gary Church: Boy, I’d like to give my two cents to the lady in charge of the change tray
I'm cheap, but not real cheap. I was paying for something that came to $2.32. Sitting on the counter was one of those loose change trays, where you can drop some change in or take some out.
Tim Kolodziej: I never realized how popular I am
I’ve never realized how many people are thinking about me today. I’ve never realized how many people want what’s “best” for me.
The Couch Potato: Does ‘30’ rock? It’s only the best sitcom — ever
The Couch Potato has written about a lot of different television shows over the past months, hitting on great dramas, comedies and everything in between.
Gary Church: Hey, do they serve fries with that burrito?
I come from a long line of fussy eaters. My mother may have been the queen. When she made biscuits, she would spoon the center out, and eat only the outside of the biscuit.
Lisa Madras: Feeling stuck? It’s time to figure out why
Why are you where you are? Geez, if this isn't a loaded question, I don't know what is. This one is going to make up dig deep. Real deep. And before the digging even starts, we have to define what we mean by "where you are."
Gary Church: Mexican food, amazing bass and a private chat with Jen — can it get any better?
Did you ever have one of those weekends that you hated to see end? It all started Friday, when after 10 years of driving the same old car, I got a new one. I got a RAV4.
Tim Kolodziej: Heading in the right direction? We’ve got a ‘50-50’ shot
Ever drop a buck or two on the 50-50 at a high school football or basketball game? Life is a lot like that, you know. Sports, especially.
The Couch Potato: ‘Wheel’ and ‘Jeopardy’ like part of the family
There are few constants in life. The sun shining in the day, the moon glowing at night and beyond that, not much else can be counted on day in and day out.
Gary Church: I can’t roll with old certificate — but maybe I can still rock the mic
Did you ever have something in your closet, and you have no idea why? At the bottom of my casual shirt closet is a framed New Castle Service Star Legion Incorporation certificate.
- More News Bloggers Headlines
- Josh Drespling: Despite what ‘they’ say, I’ll take my idols any day